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Shift
shift - (transitive verb)
to exchange for or replace by another : change
I find
myself pondering over my life and I ask the question why am I in the same
position year after year. A position of lack of fulfillment. No matter how I have attempted to find every
excuse and justification that blames everyone and everything else but me. However, no matter what reasons or justifications I tell myself the truth is I
am that reason. The only reason. My inability to take responsibility for my own
life. I cannot expect anyone or anything to be more responsible for MY life
than me. It is easier to blame others or events for why things have turned out
the way they have but, the truth is I am to blame for the direction that my
life has taken. It is not anyone else’s responsibility to rescue me but me.
Often I pretend to have take action towards better a life. When in reality
I was just going through the motions never really making any progress and it was
demonstrated in the fact that my life remained the same. True action is
demonstrated in the evidence of movement. Nothing moves and ever remains the
same. Like a river the water is continuously changing. It is virtually
impossible to actually be moving and not see change. In order to experience movement in my life I
had to first recognize that I was not moving forward and take responsibility
for my life and the experiences that have taken place up to this point. It was also
imperative that I understood that no one is coming on a white horse to rescue
me. I am the answer that I seek that will change my circumstances. It is me and
only me. So I asked myself why don’t I trust me to be the answer for “my life”?
Why do I feel I am incapable of creating a better life for me? It sounded so crazy to hear these question.
This meant that I trusted someone else with my dreams and desires.
It was apparent
that I had placed trust in everyone but me. What was causing me to believe that someone else would be a better creator for my life. Yes I've made some
mistakes over the years and those mistakes were the reason I lacked trust in
me. This broken trust caused me to stop believing in me and my ability to
govern my own life and that others needed to govern my life for me because they
know what is best for me and I did not.
That is a faulty belief system that is built on the lies that I have
told myself over time. Does not true belief start in believing in self. How can
I truly believe in someone else if I was unable to believe in me. I lack the
confidence in me to move my life forward. Now that I have said it, I recognize
the challenge.
Recognizing this truth while sweeping it under a rug and telling myself the same old lies, is not what I desire to do. I want to take complete and full responsibility and participate in the creation of my own life. Lord God what do I do? How do I come to this place and not leave the same? I begin to ask myself a series of question. How do I participate in the creation of my own life? What does my life currently look like? What was I placed here to do? What does that life look like? How do I create that life? What am I doing in that life? Who is that life spent with? It is time to confront myself and change my beliefs.
Recognizing this truth while sweeping it under a rug and telling myself the same old lies, is not what I desire to do. I want to take complete and full responsibility and participate in the creation of my own life. Lord God what do I do? How do I come to this place and not leave the same? I begin to ask myself a series of question. How do I participate in the creation of my own life? What does my life currently look like? What was I placed here to do? What does that life look like? How do I create that life? What am I doing in that life? Who is that life spent with? It is time to confront myself and change my beliefs.
What can I
do to build that confidence in me? I've elected to borrow the beliefs of
those who believe in me. Those that have told me how great I am and what a
blessing I am to their lives. The use of their beliefs about me over time will
enable me to create and develop my own beliefs and self-confidence. Over time I will begin to see myself as they
see me and be the answer for my life. I will produce effective movement and
that will be evident in the change that will take place in my life.
" A Belief Is Only A Thought I Keep Thinking. So Why Not Think A Thought You Don't Believe Until It Becomes A Belief"
-Abraham Hicks
